The Match is 5 days away. As I sit here and wait on patients to show up there are a million things that are going through my head right now. Everything from what’s going to be for dinner, where are we going to be living once we figure out where I match, why is this week going by so slow, how many miles am I going to run tonight, why are first weeks of rotations so awkward, I need to go grocery shopping, etc. I’m sure that drives my point home.
I can’t seem to focus long enough to read more than one or two pages in my endocrinology book. This stuff is pretty interesting too.
I feel that this picture is pretty representative of my life right now. This coat hanger has so much potential. I’m sure will hold many coats in its future and stay in the wall for many years to come. Unfortunately right now it is sitting in a brand new office waiting for someone to pick it, someone to need it to hold their coat, right now it’s just two screws hanging out of the back of a panel.
I was told a few years ago, “4th year of medical school is a magical place.” Well finally with 10 weeks of rotations left I might actually agree with this statement.
The first half of fourth year is very stressful and little sleep happens. You work your tail of at all of your audition rotations as so that you discover how well you fit with the program and the residents. These are the people that you are going to be spending the good majority of the next 4+ years of your life with.
Well interviews have come and gone. The “interview trail” is over. I am back at home for good. I have 10 weeks left of being a medical student.
The rotation that I started on Monday is great. I have never done an anesthesia rotation, so this is a new experience, new things to learn, new people to work with, and hours that I definitely cannot complain about. I am at work before the sun comes up, but it is worth it. Spending the majority of my medical school education on the sterile side of the sheet, I am now getting a different perspective of surgery and the surgical patient. Also even though pharmacology still makes me cringe, learning about all the medications used for anesthesia and the process of anesthesia is a very interesting subject and fun. The doctor and CRNAs that I am working with are pretty amazing too. There has been good medical knowledge being gained and good life lessons being observed and learned this month.
It doesn’t matter what field of medicine I am rotating in and learning about each rotation I still ask myself, “will I ever know as much? be as good as? be a good resident? one day, a good attending?”
Knowing that the “Match” happens in 26 days is a bit stressful, but fortunately I am enjoying the rest of my fourth year.
Spending 4 weeks in OB/GYN was amazing. Besides learning, delivering babies, assisting with C-sections, and surgeries, actually getting to be part of bringing another life into the world was one of the most exhilarating things ever. The first time parents lives are being changed forever when that new little life comes into the world!
photo credit: @medstudentlife and @debbieeibbed
I also discovered how near and dear to my heart women’s health actually is.
So after an amazing month I think I really do have a top 3 now.
I am not sure how much the things I love are influenced by the doctors that I am with. These doctors work long hours, love what they do, and seem to enjoy their home lives and be honestly happy. I know I have other rotations where I will be with other physicians that do the same thing and hopefully I will figure out if these 3 different medical professions and lifestyles biased my decision because how amazing the doctors I first encountered these specialties with or if they are really as amazing as I think they are right now!
Whatever happens I need to make up my mind, the time had come I need to be thinking about audition rotations being set up and finishing up my fourth year schedule.
These past 6 months/7 rotations have flown by; fourth year will be here before I know it.
Learning today: you were taught medicine and pathology this way, whereas sickness presents this way.
Unfortunately people don’t walk around with signs on them telling you: this is how I should present in your clinic, and these are the signs and symptoms that really matter. At least sometimes they give us clues.
Guess that’s why I am becoming a doctor, so that one day I will be able to connect the dots.
I might have fallen in love with pediatrics today. This might happen on the first day of every rotation, or not. Actually getting to see real patients with real problems was worth the past two years of classroom work. I also actually knew some of the answers to the questions that our attending was asking us. I also like it when a patient presents the way that the book says they will.
I am sure there will be the ups and downs, being completely exhausted, and everything else that comes with being a medical student, but tonight I will live in this little cloud, keep positive thoughts, and prepare myself for 6 a.m. rounds in the morning.
Last Tuesday officially marked the end of two years of book work, sleepless nights of studying for exams, and the classroom education to becoming a physician. On July 1st a new chapter begins: clinical rotations.
Looking back at the past two years I think I can officially say that it was the longest and the shortest two years of my life. From the first day of endless printing and crying about how there is absolutely NO way I could possibly learn or maybe even read all of this information, to meeting some of the best friends I have ever had, learning that it is possible to learn a ton of information, have some kind of social life, stay in a committed and loving marriage, and the minimal amount of sleep that I actually need to feel like a human being the next day and pass an exam.
COMLEX boards were the beast that had to be overcome before I could have a very tiny summer break. Trying to keep up with Doctors in Training during the semester, COMBANK, and the other Q-banks, plus perform well in my actual classes proved to be a difficult task. I managed to, well sorta. And to top things off a solid month of 8-14 hour days of studying. I would just like to thank my husband for putting up with me through all of this, thank the girl that made sure I had a stress outlet to discuss boards with, the guy that sent me so many questions to test my knowledge and for all the love, prayers, support, and encouragement that so many people provided me.
Vacation with the husband and parents has proven to be a much needed stress relief and fun.
I will be learning and working hard for the rest of my life, but I am so glad that the past two years are behind me. The next two years are going to be hard and challenging, but I am so excited to actually get to see medicine in action.