The Match is 5 days away. As I sit here and wait on patients to show up there are a million things that are going through my head right now. Everything from what’s going to be for dinner, where are we going to be living once we figure out where I match, why is this week going by so slow, how many miles am I going to run tonight, why are first weeks of rotations so awkward, I need to go grocery shopping, etc. I’m sure that drives my point home.
I can’t seem to focus long enough to read more than one or two pages in my endocrinology book. This stuff is pretty interesting too.
I feel that this picture is pretty representative of my life right now. This coat hanger has so much potential. I’m sure will hold many coats in its future and stay in the wall for many years to come. Unfortunately right now it is sitting in a brand new office waiting for someone to pick it, someone to need it to hold their coat, right now it’s just two screws hanging out of the back of a panel.
Anesthesiology rotation. This is an important rotation. It is important to add this information to my medical knowledge, especially since I am going to be performing surgery in my future career. I remember learning pharmacology two years ago. Why didn’t this information stay in my brain. Local anesthetics, general anesthesia medication, volatile gases, nondepolarizing versus depolarizing agents. Fasiculations, what’s that? I really need this information to stick!
any other information that is IMPORTANT
It has been a long time since I had to make charts to remember drugs, but I guess it worked for pharmacology. Hopefully it will work for this rotation.
I was told a few years ago, “4th year of medical school is a magical place.” Well finally with 10 weeks of rotations left I might actually agree with this statement.
The first half of fourth year is very stressful and little sleep happens. You work your tail of at all of your audition rotations as so that you discover how well you fit with the program and the residents. These are the people that you are going to be spending the good majority of the next 4+ years of your life with.
Well interviews have come and gone. The “interview trail” is over. I am back at home for good. I have 10 weeks left of being a medical student.
The rotation that I started on Monday is great. I have never done an anesthesia rotation, so this is a new experience, new things to learn, new people to work with, and hours that I definitely cannot complain about. I am at work before the sun comes up, but it is worth it. Spending the majority of my medical school education on the sterile side of the sheet, I am now getting a different perspective of surgery and the surgical patient. Also even though pharmacology still makes me cringe, learning about all the medications used for anesthesia and the process of anesthesia is a very interesting subject and fun. The doctor and CRNAs that I am working with are pretty amazing too. There has been good medical knowledge being gained and good life lessons being observed and learned this month.
It doesn’t matter what field of medicine I am rotating in and learning about each rotation I still ask myself, “will I ever know as much? be as good as? be a good resident? one day, a good attending?”
Knowing that the “Match” happens in 26 days is a bit stressful, but fortunately I am enjoying the rest of my fourth year.
I have a list of things in my head of things that I need to do and things that I want to do. Unfortunately, these things do not always match up. When will I learn that when I am given an assignment I shouldn’t wait until the last minute to look information up. I say this not because I am in a panic to get things done, but because I have a list of things I need to look up and of course the website that I need to use is not working correctly. I guess the information that I have on my iPad, which is dead, will have to suffice. Guess this task can wait a little longer, I guess.
According to Wikipedia: Procrastination is the practice of carrying out less urgent tasks in preference to more urgent ones, or doing more pleasurable things in place of less pleasurable ones, and thus putting off impending tasks to a later time, sometimes to the “last minute”.
Spending 4 weeks in OB/GYN was amazing. Besides learning, delivering babies, assisting with C-sections, and surgeries, actually getting to be part of bringing another life into the world was one of the most exhilarating things ever. The first time parents lives are being changed forever when that new little life comes into the world!
photo credit: @medstudentlife and @debbieeibbed
I also discovered how near and dear to my heart women’s health actually is.
So after an amazing month I think I really do have a top 3 now.
I am not sure how much the things I love are influenced by the doctors that I am with. These doctors work long hours, love what they do, and seem to enjoy their home lives and be honestly happy. I know I have other rotations where I will be with other physicians that do the same thing and hopefully I will figure out if these 3 different medical professions and lifestyles biased my decision because how amazing the doctors I first encountered these specialties with or if they are really as amazing as I think they are right now!
Whatever happens I need to make up my mind, the time had come I need to be thinking about audition rotations being set up and finishing up my fourth year schedule.
These past 6 months/7 rotations have flown by; fourth year will be here before I know it.
Learning today: you were taught medicine and pathology this way, whereas sickness presents this way.
Unfortunately people don’t walk around with signs on them telling you: this is how I should present in your clinic, and these are the signs and symptoms that really matter. At least sometimes they give us clues.
Guess that’s why I am becoming a doctor, so that one day I will be able to connect the dots.