Long day. Long night. Not eating out or eating sweets. We’ve been gone all weekend. I’ve got to study. When was the last time I ate. I think it’s 930 pm?
Never know how many lives on life touches. Never know when your last conversation with someone will be. Makes you stop and think about the simple things, the complicated things, and the things that just don’t really make any sense.
Cherish those you love.
Thoughts, love, and prayers for the family, my family.
God is great! And when you get to the golden gates of heaven those who have passed before you will be waiting to welcome you home.
There is nothing like the day that you interview for medical school. Then there is nothing like the day that you get into medical school. You survive first year and continue to second year. What is the next big thing that happens? Well it apparently happened today in my class. 3rd and 4th year ROTATIONS schedule. This can be exciting, frustrating, and a little intimidating at the same time. Login to your E-value account, click this tab, fill in this button, and hope that your schedule appears. Since I am a Rural Medical Track student I had a little better idea of what my rotations schedule was going to look like than most of my classmates, but it was still made my heart flutter as I read my schedule on one little piece of paper that is my life in 4 week blocks, 2 mini-internships, 2 vacations, and step 2 board review all in 20 lines.
Tulsa, Enid, Clinton, OKC, Talihina, and wherever the wind may take me for my selectives and electives.
17 days until Spring Break
70 days until 2nd year is over
104 days until COMLEX 1
123 days until rotations.
We can do this. I can do this. “NO MORE classroom!” that’s the thought that will get me through.
thank you Mike, for supporting me through all of this.
This is what is exciting (for the moment) in a 2nd year medical students life. I am sure it won’t be very long until I am wondering what the next exciting moment of life will be. Guess we can plan a vacation now.
I realized this today: It has almost been three years since Mike and I got married, and I have procrastinated in actually ordering pictures or an album from our wedding photographer. I have the disc with all of the pictures on it, so I have some prints from the wedding, my parents, and in-laws have pictures too. We still have a huge credit that came with our package to order pictures or an album.
New goal before spring break: pick out what album and pictures I need to order over spring break. Have album or some beautiful photograph from the wedding for our 3rd anniversary.
Some of my favorites!
Best photographers: Colorband PhotoArtisans, thank you Roy & Jamie for such great photographs and letting me be a procrastinator on ordering our wedding pictures.
1996, I was a seventh grader at Ponca City Middle School… I was more worried about making the cheerleading squad, gymnastics, basketball, softball, and boys than planning on what I wanted to do with the rest of my life. Well one woman in my family was pregnant, planning her future with her husband, and making plans for the beautiful little boy that they were expecting to arrive in June. Who knew that was happened to Megan, Curtis, and her new addition to their family would not only change their lives forever, but it would impact my life so much that it intrigued me to want to become a physician, and now on days when I do not want to go on with studying and just think it is time to call it quits Trenton’s story is the thing that keeps me going. At a rough point in the fall semester I e-mailed my cousin about what all went on with her pregnancy and because we were studying embryology, and I knew that my cousin had survived against odds that I am still being taught are almost impossible. I know this is not my story to tell, but this is something that sits in the back of my head every day while I focus on becoming a doctor.
I don’t remember a lot of what went on the first week Trenton was born, most of my “memories” come from Curtis and our parents. But I took lots of notes throughout his hospitalization on what was happening to Trenton. I can look through them or ask Curtis and our parents if need be. And I do have SOME of the HUGE amount of hospital records from Children’s Hospital.
In the attached file are the pictures of Trenton from the birth announcement we sent out. This top picture is of Trenton 2-3 days after he was born. In this picture he weighs 12 oz. and is 11.5 inches long. That is my hand in the picture. The bottom picture is taken on his first birthday. He weighed a whopping 18 lbs. 13 oz. and was 27.5 inches long.
Trenton was born 18 weeks early or at approximately 22 weeks gestation. We THOUGHT we were further along than 22 weeks…my OBGYN and I calculated around 23-24 weeks. But after Trenton was born, it was obvious that he was “younger” than the estimated 23-24 weeks. His APGAR scores were dismal (I have those scores if you need them), and his eyes were still fused. We were told that the eyes open at 25 weeks. Which after he was born his eyes did open around 3 weeks later. Any way you look at it in 1996 he was not viable, we were told he was going to die, or that he had a one in a million chance of surviving. And IF he did survive he would most likely have horrible birth defects.
At birth Trenton weighed in at 1lb exactly and was 11.5 inches long. As best as I can describe it his skin was translucent. I am PROBABLY the only mother alive who will willingly say I had one UGLY baby! LOL If you make a “U” shape with your hand his head would fit into that. His leg was the length of my pointer finger. He was just unbelievably tiny.
We were not allowed to touch him for the longest time. His poor little skin would tear if you stroked him. We did get to hold him much earlier than what the physicians wanted, but only because they thought he wasn’t going to make it. He lived on a table under a heating lamp for the first month and a half of his life. His blanket was made out of Saran Wrap (which I still have). It helped to keep him moisturized. When he gained A LITTLE weight they moved him to an isolette.
Trenton was VERY sensitive to any type of noise. When you were by his “bedside” you had to whisper. Any type of noise would make his heart rate and O2 level drop. Which if you have ever been in a NICU…it is noisy…alarms are constantly going off. My mom and sister made him a blanket to drape the isolette to help keep the noise down.
Once his umbilical cord dried up and they couldn’t use that as a means of administering medication, they put in a PICC line. Still to this day you can see where the tape that wrapped around his upper arm tore away skin and muscle. He has a “crater” in that part of his arm. He has MANY MANY scars all over his body. The worst are his groin area, and feet.
We were told that probably one of the reasons he lived was because his urine output was so good. I can’t remember exactly when it was but he got a severe yeast infection. They had to do a spinal tap because they thought it might have infected the spinal fluid ( I think that was the reason for the spinal tap…have to check my notes.). And because of all the urine and the yeast infection I say he circumcised himself. But what happened is the foreskin split down the penis and grew together on the underneath side.. We later had that excess skin removed when he was about 2 years old. The collection of urine on his skin was a big problem because he was too tiny to wear a diaper…they don’t make them that small…and because his skin was so thin.
Ventilators….this was horribly scary. The physicians at Children’s (now OU) tried every ventilator they had…and none of them were working for Trenton. They told me that they had one last machine to try, but that it was in storage and had not been used for YEARS. I might have the name/type of ventilator in my notes…but off the top of my head I don’t remember. Anyway…they dragged it out of storage and tried it out….obviously it worked.
Trenton developed BPD. He had apnea. And I am sure many other things I can’t remember.
Hydrocephalus….Trenton had a Grade Three head bleed. They watched it very closely, but never had to put a shunt in.
Eyes…. Trenton has ROP. He was about 2 months old when he had his first of many eye surgeries. Dr. Mark Scott preformed a laser surgery to stop the growth of vessels in his eyes. His retina was in danger of detaching. He now has horrible vision…but he can see. He has little to no peripheral vision. He has already had cataract surgery in both eyes (at age 7yrs.). And has had many Strabismus surgeries, the last was 2 years ago. With everything Trenton had to go through, I would say having poor vision isn’t too small a price to pay.
I remember us giving the hospital permission to put Trenton on a study regarding O2 and his eyes. I don’t know the specifics on what was done…just that he was a participant in the study.
While in the NICU he got an infection of salmonella. One of the nurses tested positive for it. He was a sick little baby with it.
When Trenton finally got to come home he was on Apnea monitors and constant O2. He came home earlier than what the physicians anticipated for a couple of reasons….one he was doing well, and two he was the least “sick” baby in the NICU/nursery…and they were full and need the bed space.
Trenton was born February 11, 1996 and came home at the end of May, his due date was June 3, 1996…not too bad!
It was the most terrifying time of my life. Thank God most parents don’t have to go through this, but for those of us who have, we get to see what is going on inside a pregnant woman’s body….. what an amazing journey it is… the development of a human life.
Please let me know if you need or want any further information. I think that Trenton is my own little miracle…and I thank God daily for the medical staff at Children’s Hospital in OKC. If people can learn from Trenton’s struggle for survival I am all for it.
My mother babysat Trenton for a good many years after he was born. It is funny to think about him rolling around the house in his walker, especially now from the developmental standpoint of information that I have learned. This was 15 years ago, medicine changes daily. Medicine advances daily in what it knows about the physiology of our bodies and about ways to help it.
I spent a good amount of my time in preparation for coming to medical school shadowing neonatologist in the NICU at OUHSC Pediatric Hospital in Oklahoma City, OK and learned many, many things as well witnessed many happy endings, as well as sad endings from the doctors side of the story. Even if I do not become a neonatologist I know that being a doctor in Oklahoma, whether it be in a big city or in the middle of rural Oklahoma, I will have impact on people’s health, wellness, lives, and families.
I also know that medicine is not 100% to thank for Trenton being with us today, but the abilities of the physicians and medicine that God has given us were the reasons that he is here, and I thank God that he has blessed me with the drive, knowledge, and ability to become a physician that can help lives be changed.
This semester has been a test of endurance, positive self thought, motivation, and being positive for my friends. Last night was one of the best get togethers that we have had since school started. After a long semester things are finally starting to wind down to wind back up in order to finish my first year of medical school.
The best girls in my life that I could ever ask all came to my house and brought wine, dessert, salad, and we had the fish, chips and beer to go with it. As the men stood outside and cooked we all hung out while finishing all the fixings for dinner. Then we actually all got to sit out on the patio in the backyard and talk, well if you know us we don’t just talk, we are known as the LOUD family in some circles. So we have taken this name and embraced it. We work our tails off trying to learn as much as we can and be able to apply it one of these days so that we can have a great time and enjoy ourselves once every 100 or so days, and I mean literally every 100+ days because most the time we are running from one fire to another trying to burn it out with all the knowledge that we have and move on to the next thing while trying to remember everything that we burnt the previous one out with.
The 8 girls and I ate, drank, laughed, cried, told stories, got loud, had all sorts of estrogen running through the house, which is maybe why the guys stayed in the backyard. What an amazing night for forming those bonds with these amazing women that always going to be a part of my life now. We will venture through medical school together, then through weddings, having babies (one of these women will probably deliver my children), deciding what kind of physicians we want to be, establishing lives, going on fun vacations together and everything else that life has in store for us because lets face it, there is not an experience that any of us have been through that bonds are formed like we have made in the short 9 months that we have known each other.
The weekend of Easter what a great weekend for this time of the semester to fall on. Time to have fellowship with friends and family, a time to look at our lives and know that this is where God has taken me and is giving me the strength, intelligence, and means to get through this thing they call medical school and he blessed me with these amazing woman to go on this journey with.
Haley, Brooke, Natalie, Danielle, TaRynn, & Megan thanks for being these people! Thanks for being some of the amazing women that are going to be the physicians of America in a few short years, and thank you for being those girls that can get crazy and have a good time when we know that we are all in this together and that second year for all of us except Megan, who third year, is just right around the corner. Can you believe it….. finals are all that stand between us and the next small step to becoming physicians. The time we have together is amazing!
What more could a girl ask for……
P.S. Men in our lives you are all amazing for going through this adventure with us!
So there are those days when you feel like you have learned absolutely nothing, or might not have ever learned anything in your life. Well thank goodness today was not one of them. This week started out good and has just continued to go that way. Maybe starting out the week with our anniversary just means that the rest of this month is going to be just as amazing.
Wednesdays are the days that I think make or break my whole week. Well today I actually didn’t have to rush to school to be on time and then OMM was such a positive motivator today, it made me feel like I can actually learn things and remember them. Maybe there is hope for me yet to be a doctor. Thank you Dr. Coffman and Dr. Dyer for being awesome professors that teach us ways to make people feel better.
The weather was beautiful for a bike ride and sitting in my office studying while the sunshine was out.
The only bad part about today was missing my sister’s 30th birthday, but I am glad that she understands how crazy being a first year medical student is, well at least tries too. I hope that Billie Jo had an amazing day for entering into a new decade in her life.
Ponca City Mike and I will see you at Easter.
Study break, dinner, and more neuroanatomy.